Having a day

So lately I have really come out of my shell and become more social. After talking to Will about it yesterday I realize its because I am finally adjusting to him being away. Go figure it takes me 6 months to adjust. Anyways we have been on island for 4 years and I haven't really let myself make friends, which is unusual for me because every base we have been on I have had a few select people that I click with and then when the guys leave on deployments those are the women I depend on to be my support group. Well here I am 4 years later and finally have I allowed myself to become friends with someone. It's nice to have someone to hang out with and talk to that understands what I am going through.
This weekend has been nice during the day I sit outside and talk with her while all the kids play and the in the evenings the kids go in and I sit and talk with her with just us adults, which is what I need. I have found since allowing myself this I have quit sleeping so much. Before I would wake up get the kids off to school and then go back to bed and sleep the day away until the kids came home. Not much of a life huh?
Well even though I spent the day busy yesterday putting up pools and hanging out with my neighbor I woke up this morning just sad. It's father's day and my hubby, who I should be making breakfast in bed for is in Iraq. I miss him like crazy and I am just filled with so much sadness today. I am so tired of missing him, I am tired of dealing with the kids all alone I am just having a day I guess where all I want to do is cry. I want to hear my baby's voice so bad....update....Will called as I typed that last word